Confusion · and · Emotions

It seems like it's been forever (once again) since I posted. I wish I could say I had a real good excuse but I really don't. I've just been generally lazy. >_< I haven't done much of anything. But, since I've realized this, I've decided it's time to make some changes. I've decided to start playing around with art supplies and not be terrified, just try a little everyday. Who knows, maybe it'll help. I've decided I need to MOVE everyday. Walk, job, rollerblade, bike... don't care, just need to go out for a little bit every day. I've also started changing around my diet and I'm trying to fill up on veggies and fruit and not all the junk >_< I'm really not happy with myself right now, and maybe this will help.

I definately need to work on my self confidence again.. it's kind of gone down the drain. I knew it wasn't good when I was hiding in hoodies and barely smiling >_< I also need to either make some new friends or reconnect with some old ones. I need a girls night.... and to go places. I'm really looking forward to Ren Fest again, and I think next week I'm going to Canal Fest with my parents to see someone play. I've been getting into music again and picked up some new CDs. Got Duffy, Simply Plan, Gavin Degraw.. been looking at some others as well. Need to make Nate a mixed CD since he needs music for his new car (I can't believe her drove to NYC/Long Island to get a new car!).

What else? oh... must work on my desk... I want to have it sanded this week if nothing else... then I have to pant it, put on the new handles and then decopage the top with pictures and post cards. So, people, send me pictures/drawings/stickers! I needs stuffs to purtify it :) lol. Than I think I'm going to get a sheet of plexiglass to cover it so it doesn't ruin. :) so much fun. I think if the weather holds up I might try and doe that today. Plus it'll give me a chance to clear out some junk that's been piling up. I already filed all my bills last night. I have to fax my defensive driver's course certificate to my insurance company to get my 10% off, plus fax it to the union for a percentage reimbursed.

I think I'm going to go either try and read or draw for a bit... then data entry! goodie *rolls eyes*